My gosh, my sleeping habits are soo wacked now...can't sleep...i usually can't stay up during exam time...but now i'm wide awake...gosh...
i was talking to my mom today...and she really wanted me to go back to HK this Christmas...so i actually checked out the tickets today...crazy huh...but it's soo expensive and it's soo hard to find room...so i guess i'm not gonna go back...wasn't really planning on to...kinda rushed...but i really wanted to go back and see everyone...i really miss them...like relatives and all,...even my grandparents...sometimes i wished that i never came to Canada...i felt like i was never apart of their lives...and they were never apart of mine...but i still talk to them once in a while...which is nice...=)...i do miss them...i talked to my uncle and aunt today...they always bring a smile to my face...it's soo nice just to hear their voice...and my little cousin...soo cute..i miss her soooo muchhhhhhhhh.....i think when i'm done university...i would go back and work....at least for a bit...i think it'll be good...=)...
i always wondered how i would be like if i was still there...a real FOB i suppose...
nehow...i wonder how long i'm gonna keep up with this blog for...i don't think for long to be honest...=/
i had such a great day today...from morning to night...great great day...=)...i'm like smiling from inside...i miss this feeling...just being able to be happy...=)...
i realize because it seems like i'm slowly stepping back into God's arms...slowly pulling myself back together...God will be here to guide me through the way...i noe there's still much to learn...i guess it's always a learning process...never ending till the end...
but there's still so many things i don't understand...so many feelings towards ppl i can't change...i still can't let go of ...grudges and resentment towards ppl...i guess that's what i concluded i'm feeling towards some ppl..it's bad...i noe...but what do i do to change that??...
sighhhh....i guess things will slowly work it's way out...
everything will work out the way it's meant to...i'm really trying to hold on to that...real hard...g'nite