ahh...i can't believe this...i get to sleep in and i CAN'T...i tired sleeping later last night hoping that i could sleep in...but no, i've gotten so use to it...now i'm wide awake...
oh well..i'll make the best out of it by blogging...=)...
hmmm...what else to talk about...yes yes...something else i've been realizing lately...i didn't really notice this till yesterday...well i realized it before but now it's like a pattern...i realized that with my circle of friends...i'm always in between groups...either it be waterloo, ryerson, highschool...why is it always like that...i feel like i'm neither or...just in the middle...i hate it (hate is a strong word, i dislike it)...i dislike being in the middle...middle sucks...even between my brothers...
okay...let me explain what i mean...i don't even know where to start...i dislike explaining things...
hmmm...like among groups of friends anywhere...i tend to be jumping from group to group...not really grounded in one...like i'm close with both groups...but my time is split up...i guess it's okay...but i never realized that i'm doing this soo much...sometimes it's like i have to pick and choose which group to go with...and it just feels like i'm in a bit of this, and a bit of that...not grounded...not grounded like in a church rite now...never grounded...i dislike it!...
i wasn't even the only one that noticed...it was weird...when i was meeting up with some other ppl yesterday...that thought was in my head...and as coincidently as it was...my friend said that too...
oh wellz...i guess i see why i'm like that...i know i could easily get along with most ppl pretty well i suppose...i don't really mind if there 2 or 80...i could get along with them...well...my mom told meh that too...and i tend to...not like really really well...i mean...i've gotten pretty close with my brothers gf's parents...yeah...it might sound weird but i even went over there for dinner and it was just me and her parents...it was finee...not awkward or anything...there just like my friends or something...=)...i mean even with her grandmother...i get along with...she's really nice though...one time at dinner...she's like...i'm always so happy to see you...your always smiling....i never even noticed...but it was just nice to hear that...and i talk to her whenever i see her...and even played mj with her...cause she likes playing with us kids better...
i guess i always "thought" that i could get along wherever and wtih whoever, until...church...till this day...i don't feel like we get along...maybe because i always thought that i'll happen eventually...i always just waited for things to happen...but it never really did...maybe it's just not meant to happen...hmm...i don't noe...
God, please grounded me somewhere...i need serious help...i don't want to be jumping around like what i'm doing right now...i dislike it...not really a part of anything...just floating around like a bubble...and the bubble is going to "pop" soon...